Long Wait for any Invitations

While writing my last entry, this other bother came to mind. I had to cut out whatever I had and rewrite it a bit.

I've always long to be invited to events or activities while in school from students or friends able to persuade me enough to get evolve in any that I don't usually do or had any interest in. I remember some students tried before, but that included rapping or working out majority wise. Eventually I was never invited to anything... school plays, dances, bon fires, games, concerts etc. Even though I may not enjoy them... I wouldn't mind going for a friend. As long as my friend is having fun or enjoying it, that's all for me. Bonus if I enjoyed it too.

I don't enjoy going to events or activities alone, or with family (which is very often), despite other people being there. I would just feel... lonely. Then again I was invited to that Nerf War a few months back, and I had fun. At first I didn't want to go... but eventually I made up my mind and went. I was happy I was invited... I didn't want to waste that invitation.

However... it was an invite from at most high school students from the church. Always longed to be invited to something while in school... tried to keep hope for it. To a dance, or party... anything by someone back then... but nothing. Not even hint of being mentioned. I was of no importance to anyone. Just an outcast to them...

Even though I may have declined, would be nice to be invited at least. To at least know I still exist to them.