Journal Entry #14

Just realized I haven't made a post in almost a month. Nothing to really write about these days... well except for one thing.

For a few days, I had an issue with my left ear. Ear wax build up basically that I couldn't hear well out of that ear. Someone had to take my place to run the sound board last Sunday morning since monitoring volumes and cues will be difficult with only one ear working properly. I did want one person to run it, but apparently he didn't feel comfortable running it alone yet, but luckily someone else did. Glad Dad understood my concern about me running it that Sunday. Felt I needed a good break anyway.

Journal Entry #13

Started playing Pokemon Ruby again, after not playing it for years on an old save file. Think I'm doing better than I did years ago, in general of Pokemon games... but now I don't have anyone to battle/trade with. I did as a kid between Red/Blue/Yellow and Gold/Silver versions... but the "peers" I had weren't very motivated, but would tease me if I made a mistake or got a bit lost... they were 3 badges ahead of me. I made a mistake once of using a master ball on a Ditto, it was the only pokeball I had at that time and got teased at. I asked "How do I get the bike?" in Blue and I got laughed at... by middle school I had to accept the fact they weren't really my friends and went on to try to find new ones. I was always easy to be picked on... left helpless without anyone to go to for comfort.

Journal Entry #12

Niece and Nephew visited tonight. Glad this visit was very tolerable... seems I can handle kids when they're not so hyper and screaming their heads off. ...guess I still wouldn't be able to be a good parent... if I ever want to have children that is; currently don't but time may change that. Helped my nephew with math, simplifying fractions. I'm very good in math so tutoring was easy (sort of).

Journal Entry #11

By Vicse

Went to my grandpa's 81st birthday... can't shake the feeling it might be his last though. When the pastor came over, was invited... I felt a slight chill of death approaching soon.

Anyway, I wasn't that all cheerful. I wasn't depressed... but just bummed. College for starters... I really want to call it quits and find some source of income, as getting a job will be sorta difficult for me. I know I will have to leave my comfort zone...but one of the steps will just be too big me to make alone. I want to work with someone I know well enough, that will give me a good start of having a job. I don't do well around strangers that I don't know... I try to open up, but always get a chill of loneliness. I know I can't be in my shell forever... but due to past experiences, I'm too cautious and paranoid. I want to have a job where I have to interact with few people as possible.

Journal Entry #10

Haven't made an entry for awhile... guess there hasn't been much to post lately.

For the past week, beaten 3 (out of 4) games that I gotten free from a raffle event from a steam group--yes it's a legit group and the contest was a random pick of two people. Prize condition: Pick any games that lead up to a value of $35 OR one game of $50 value. I picked 4, which was 4 cents away to the max.

1. Puzzler World (Bunch of puzzle games)
2. LIMBO (Indie Noir-like Game)
3. Jolly Rover (Cartoon Adventure Game, good for new players in the genre)
4. Bastion (Epic RPG Game)

Journal Entry #9

Nerf War!

Victor: Who cares? IT WAS FUN!

The youth group (about 5 members from middle to high school, somewhat including me) held a Nerf war at the church tonight, from 5 to 8, for a good 1 1/2 hours (took about an hour for them to set up the area with tables and such). I don't have modern Nerf guns that I could bring to be used in the event, did bring the three I got from 90's and early 2000's. They look good, but the performance is decent to awful. I haven't used them in years, just been on a shelf collecting dust.

Journal Entry #8

Just took Grandma to a few stops, since Grandpa isn't feeling very well that he wasn't able to drive. Pharmacy, Bank, and Grocery Store in that order. It was a bit nervous as I was driving on streets I wasn't familiar with, plus first time I had a passenger in my car.

Despite it being nervous, I needed to get out anyway. It was good drive, despite having to drive on the highway with two oversized vehicles: some sort of house and construction mobile being transfered on the way to her complex.

It was fun I suppose. I'm trying to recapture the meaning of fun... but I think it was. :)

Journal Entry #7

So bored... another day of 12 hours of sleep, 5am to 5pm... I really gotta find a hobby.

Found out I'm not able to recorde Java games very well. Minecraft (Classic) and Spiral Knights (for examples) I get a FPS of <10, while on games like L4D2 (on the lowest resolution, intel graphics card ftl) I get around 30, which is decent to most gamers I suppose. Wanted to do a video of me playing Minecraft, but I guess 4GB of ram won't cut it since Java, I heard takes a lot of ram and Fraps needs a lot of ram as well. Guess I'll think of something else or something... Still want Minecraft though.

Journal Entry #6

My demand for minecraft is very high right now. If only they would take freaking Discover card! It's the only one I have... even though it's under my parents' account, I still have the money myself to purchase the game. Really want it... just wish I could find a way to get it myself. I don't feel comfortable getting it as a gift, espcially since a close friend of mine wants it too and I really want to play it with her. She does have a job, eventually going back to it... maybe, and a possible way of getting it; she just needs money first. (Getting it from a contest or something, I wouldn't really mind myself).

Journal Entry #5

Just pulled a stupid move tonight. Drove to the college for my night class, by the time I got there I noticed a lack of cars, like 3/4 not in the parking lots. I parked temporarly to think about this... then I remembered, NO CLASSES TODAY!

Journal Entry #4

Sigh... in a bit of a quandry here... The instructor for Geology 101 is nice... but the way she teaches the class has now caused me to fall asleep, happened Tuesday night, and deeply lose interest during the lectures. As for the labs, after a 10-15 minute break from the lectures... well my lab partner dropped out (reasons unknown, was fun to be with too) so at times I work with another pair who are at around my age but more freash out of highschool with the characteristics of being a college bachalor, but even with their help I can't indentify rocks/minerals alone and that was part of that lab test a few weeks ago, to identify rocks/minerals alone for 3 minutes per, which I gotten a D in. Did better in the lab test than the lecture test, which was an F... couldn't bring myself to study without getting frustrated. I pretty much have no solid study habits.

Journal Entry #3

Off to see my counsin's newborn today. First saw it on facebook when I was eating cereal... seeing the picture of the newborn in destress on the "baby table", after it comes out of the womb, wasn't a pretty sight for me while eating. Had to scroll down fast to prevent puking.

Journal Entry #2

Just gotten a response from them today... took them a week. Got my account back now.

Journal Entry #1

A friend suggested I make a blog, after reading my latest notes on facebook that she found them "thoughtful and deep". Also been "interesting" for her to read. Few of my friends also find that as well, at least the ones that tell me that.


Not sure how frequent I'll be with entries... still not sure what to put on here either. Something will come up eventually... but for now, this entry will do as a starter.