There Ain't No Rest for the Kitty

Grr! Today was suppose to be a relaxing day for me. Nothing but being disturbed, interruptions after another, and barely any moment of peace and relaxation for me!

These past few days have been busy for me and I finally had a day to calm and relax. However we had to get the plumber here due to a back up problem (leading to the build up of sewage and acid along with odor), dad had to deal with some insurance thing and his agent had to arrive at the house on the same day to resolve some issue. Phones kept ringing since this morning and I had to be the one to answer them since Dad was out busy and Mom was at work.

I got invited to a MMO called Mabinogi with from friends from Antilia. I like the game, but just couldn't concentrate it without getting interrupted over and over again! When I'm not playing a game, nothing! When playing a game, everyone wants my attention even if it's something important that I already figured myself!

Can't I just get a day to relax and unstress myself out from the work I've done in the past few days?! ARGH!

Sigh... I'll be fine... just... want some time alone to myself for a change... too much to ask for?

Bad Day

Over the weekend and Monday I had good eventful days. Made a bank account (needed mom's assistance with it), able to cash in my checks that were pilling up since late October, Jazz Service at the church, Grandma's "Music Salon" which was her (postponed, due to recent death of Grandpa) birthday celebration, and then game night. Eventful good days and happy moments. Tuesday was a calm/lazy day, well needed after the weekend + Monday events. Wednesday, however, was just bad for me.

I haven't logged into the Tf2 server since last Saturday, because of so much that happened over the weekend and Monday. Tuesday I just didn't bother. Wednesday, was just stressful.

I go into the server, they're in a mode that I'm not too fond of, Arena. Especially when it has plenty of hardcore players in it. Just wouldn't be fun to me, especially with a certain few that enjoys making never ending sarcastic remarks and put downs, thinking they're just being funny when they're getting personal with those comments.

W and Tab! Why You No Work?!

Today was just horrible for me on TF2. My "W" and "Tab" button kept glitching out on me, becoming less responsive. I can't do anything when I can't move forward, but only side and back. Seems it wears off when I get off TF2, with a few glitches here and there for a while.

I hope it's just the game glitching up and not my keyboard. I don't want to save up for a new laptop already. Had this for maybe 2 years now. Very frustrating to play like this...

Just hope this gets resolved soon, otherwise I just won't be able to play TF2 anymore... and left with just... single player games. Can't really buy any new games, tight budget and how much profit I get is unknown, but possibly small amounts at best.

There is a MMO about to have a test session this weekend... see if my W key will respond more in there (no use for tab in game, but will do ctrl+tab often while playing it). Gonna try other games too, see if I get the same issue. If so, may have to look up for a new laptop, if not, take a break from TF2 for a few days or till there's an update. Just hope I'm not the only one having this issue.

Doing All the Work

Do you ever get those moments where it feels like you're doing all the work for your team whether it's in gaming, business, event, etc.? I get those too when I'm on a poor stacked team of players in TF2. It's very frustrating.

I know it's just a game and all... but I don't like to lose by getting bulldozed. If the round was more evenly matched and tense, I wouldn't mind if we lose or not. I don't want it too easy either. I like a challenge, but not an impossible one at least.

If  I see too many experience and/or hardcore players in the server, depending on how the teams are laid out, I may or may not join in the game but spectate a bit. Easy matches bore me (along with lack of players) and highly difficult matches will just frustrate me to no end.

I STILL Don't Understand People

Throughout my life there's one thing I can never understand: People. Try to be nice and fun, it gets ruin. Try to fight back, I get to be marked as the bad guy instead. Others say they know me, yet I somehow can't know them. It always feels like I'm their main target to pick on. I do the best I can, yet rarely get any help or support, and usually get ganged up on. Rarely get any compliments and tips/advice too. It's almost as if people want me to be just a failure in life and everything around it.

At times it feels like I'm the only sane person out of a few. They have their fun and I will respect that as long as they respect my fun. Never works out for me, oh no. Starting to question some of the friends I have right now... always getting used for entertainment that causes me to get frustrated in the end. They know it, they do it, they get it. Always, one way or another, they always get their laugh of it, and with me wanting to cut their throats with a rusty knife.

...Part of me just wants to go on a killing spree in many locations for certain people... at least they won't be able to bother me anymore...

Harassment and Bullying

Just recently I was getting harassed and bullied by two players on a TF2 server I normally go to. (It has god mode on maps that don't have an objective, i.e. "dm", or death match, maps. Get god mode when you spawn, lose it when you attack or alt attack; shouldn't taunt kill in god mode either.)

It all started on the map mlp_hearths_warming_cabinv2. A blue heavy was waiting outside of red spawn, on top of a fire place, spinning his mini-gun, awaiting anyone to leave though that doorway to kill them. (There is another doorway where players can exit and enter, but that's not the point). Basically spawn camping, which is not allowed on certain type of maps. I would just air blast the heavy off, causing him to be forced down to a table (part of the map, also where the another doorway leads to) and just repeat. He would constantly say "white knight", whatever that was suppose to mean, when I air blasted him off from our spawn. The blue heavy is fully aware of the rules, but kept on doing it anyway.

Arrogant Admin

In a TF2 server I regularly go to, there's an admin on there that I have no respect for. Far as I know, he likes to show off and get a little carried away with his admin powers. For instance, at times he would change the next map, despite there's a voting system for that, to a map that isn't part of the rotation. Arena_Nucleus and Arena_Well.

What really peeved me the most was that he changed it without anyone voting or having any say about it. He would even cancel a vote that is about to happen or after the vote he would change it. He always complains about a certain map that "some cannot load" and would change it instantly to a map that is out of the rotation. There is a search engine called "Google". You can look up the map and version, with any other needed keywords, and find a link that'll have that version with a download like. The map is dm_cloudsdale_b5. For some reason the server won't download and players will have to go looking for it (that's what I did, didn't hear me whining about it.)

Two Party Protesters, Two Different Reactions

Warning: This topic is a sensitive subject. That being said please prevent use of any arguing or belligerent behavior. I appreciate you to read with an open mind and understanding, regardless of your race and view of another race.

This is not for the fate of heart nor children, regardless of race, to know about without adult supervision and understanding.

This is one of few things that's been on my mind for a while.

A friend, after reading this entry, referenced to this bible verse. 1 John 5:19, "We know we originate with God, but the whole world is lying in the [power of the] wicked one." That should give you an idea of what this entry is about, metaphorically speaking.

Bad Day!

Where do I start?

This morning at 7am (usually wake up close to day time) I woke up. Couldn't get much sleep since my mind was racing on some thoughts.

Communication Failure on a Job Offering

Yesterday I was told about a job offer for pet and house sitting for 9 days (from Monday to next Wednesday). I was told about this from my mom, from a friend of my dad's, and who I also know.

The job was to watch over pets: fish, cats, and two Cocker Spaniel dogs. Fish would be a breeze, cats I have good experience with (I miss Cleo), but for dogs... no experience. Originally the plan was to see the dogs the next day, see I could get acquainted with them and such. It was a "maybe" at that point. Years past I would get a little afraid because of their "strong greetings" they would have on people. I don't like strong greetings... makes me feel like I'm being threaten.

About CISPA

I'll just let this following quote let it say how I feel about it.

"The power it holds can bring forth either salvation, or destruction, at the whim of the user."
-Aura, .hack//Infection

How Does This Relate?

Someone I know, little older than me, (we're both legal adults) posted a video in a "grind my gears" topic on a forum I got to. "Grind my gears" usually means what annoys you and such. However, how he put this video in his post and talked about it was actually the opposite... I was curious as to how this was a "grind my gears" to him, but instead he took it out of proportion and just ignored the question completely and felt like he was being personally attacked.

Jerk in Eden Eternal

I was playing as a Thief (my usual class) in the game when I asked for some aid for a dungeon. I could do a 1-player dungeon, but won't really get anything out of it. 1-player dungeon is mainly for quests, no exp, money or drops are given. In encourages partying basically. So I ask a bit for some aid, repeat it after some time passes by... then I decided to just go do a 1-player dungeon.

As I started I see in the chat iBugs is looking for a party as well. I leave the dungeon and ask for an invite. Got invited and changed the channel to 1, by request of Brul, a Ursun with a character level in his mid 40's, who is the leader of the party.

About the Kony 2012 Controversy

I saw the video a few days ago and currently seeing some controversy about the video, campaign, and charity group Invisible Children. Saw videos about how inaccurate it is, that it's a lie, a scam, etc. Even read a news article and a blog post about it that is sorta questioning the video and group entirely. Some saying they're from Uganda and claiming he died 5 years ago or moved away from Uganda 6 years ago or something and how only 31% is going into charity. Watch this to ease that pain: KONY 2012 Scam or Not?

The videos I watched that are against the video and questioning the group, this girl saying from a claim by her parents that Kony died 5 years ago and saying to do more research instead of just one sided, granted that's true on the research, however, I doubt three filmmakers did a great 30 minute video all for a scam.

Pokemon Controversy: Agree, Disagree, and Confused

I was looking around Bulbapedia, while playing with Ruby for move and stat info between two Pokemon that are in relation of evolution. Then I wondered off to something else and came to here: Pokemon Controversy

Few of these accusations/concerns I agree with, some I don't really understand, rest... I just wanna slap them basically for not having an open mind.

The Proportion Explosioner

Just ignore whatever ____ says. You're better off not listening to anything he says these days... he's been blowing things out of proportion for about a month, and tends to mostly exaggerate everything.

I was letting someone know not to take a certain someone serious... as always, the certain someone, once again, blew it out of proportion when it's merely a fact about him. Same guy who finds "Frick" offensive and who also called me cancer, although he denies it, still.