When I Was Actually Happy and Free of Thoughts

By Anialator

Seeing this fan-picture of Mike and Lucy, during middle school years I believe it is taking place, being friends back then, reminded me of something... something of my past that I've long forgotten.

I wasn't always thinking, so paranoid, so judgemental, so tense. I was more happy, carefree, and not thinking so much. Even had fun.

I wonder now where all that has gone... how I am right now today... just isn't working out for me. Too late for me to go back to being happy and such. I've tried... but my current state just overcomes it easily.

This Year's Christmas Presents

1. Mirror's Edge (PC)*
2. "Watchmen"
3. Razor Set (since I always borrowed dad's)
4. Blue Nike Long Sleeve Shirt (For around the house)
5. Black Adiddas Sweat Pants (For around the house)
6. Food: Beef Sasuages, Dried Fruit Bars (organic, various flavors, various brands), Fruit Snacks

4 from the folks, 1 from a friend. To be honest, this is a lot compared to how the economy is. 4 to me at this time would be like 8-10 when I was little.

Journal Entry #11

By Vicse

Went to my grandpa's 81st birthday... can't shake the feeling it might be his last though. When the pastor came over, was invited... I felt a slight chill of death approaching soon.

Anyway, I wasn't that all cheerful. I wasn't depressed... but just bummed. College for starters... I really want to call it quits and find some source of income, as getting a job will be sorta difficult for me. I know I will have to leave my comfort zone...but one of the steps will just be too big me to make alone. I want to work with someone I know well enough, that will give me a good start of having a job. I don't do well around strangers that I don't know... I try to open up, but always get a chill of loneliness. I know I can't be in my shell forever... but due to past experiences, I'm too cautious and paranoid. I want to have a job where I have to interact with few people as possible.

The Proportion Explosioner

Just ignore whatever ____ says. You're better off not listening to anything he says these days... he's been blowing things out of proportion for about a month, and tends to mostly exaggerate everything.

I was letting someone know not to take a certain someone serious... as always, the certain someone, once again, blew it out of proportion when it's merely a fact about him. Same guy who finds "Frick" offensive and who also called me cancer, although he denies it, still.

Team Fortress 2: Funny Pyro Blast Story

There's a funny story behind these kills. As I was in the process of re-spawning, I looked through the cameras in spectator mode to see where the enemy case was in our intel room. I noticed a solider was down there, so I switched to pyro.