"Our House Below" & "Nobody's Home"

There's something about these two songs:  "Our House Below", from a anime movie called Arrietty, and "Nobody's Home" by Avril Levigne (used to listen to this up till high school) that gets to me. It has me questioning two things: "Family" and "Home". Do I feel a part of a family? Do I feel like I'm home? I honestly don't know anymore... What do they both mean anyway? Because I don't think I know the meanings anymore...

Suddenly Feel at Peace

By Sam

I don't know why or how, but I feel at peace with everything. Like a great weight has finally been lifted off of my shoulders. Feel free and happy. I don't want to worry about the cause of this, but I want to enjoy every moment of this for as long as I can.

I believe the song "Fix Me" by 10 Years may be a key to this of me feeling so... calm and collected. It could also be the early June like temperatures (70's with cool winds). Either way, I'm glad I'm feeling this.

I want this to last forever. I don't want to feel paranoid, to feel scared, to be afraid of a lot of things, to shy away from people and end up pushing people away.

I think I'm finally understand the world and how it works. I think I may have finally began to... accept it. While I still don't know my place in this world, this is a huge step regardless. Bigger than you think. I've been denying and refusing the world for so long. All I needed was... a second view of it, after wanting some space for myself, to gain control for my life. Viewing it at first while under the stress of school and grades didn't have a good outcome. I couldn't... I wouldn't accept it. Yet, I feel I finally have after so many years.

About the Kony 2012 Controversy

I saw the video a few days ago and currently seeing some controversy about the video, campaign, and charity group Invisible Children. Saw videos about how inaccurate it is, that it's a lie, a scam, etc. Even read a news article and a blog post about it that is sorta questioning the video and group entirely. Some saying they're from Uganda and claiming he died 5 years ago or moved away from Uganda 6 years ago or something and how only 31% is going into charity. Watch this to ease that pain: KONY 2012 Scam or Not?

The videos I watched that are against the video and questioning the group, this girl saying from a claim by her parents that Kony died 5 years ago and saying to do more research instead of just one sided, granted that's true on the research, however, I doubt three filmmakers did a great 30 minute video all for a scam.

Some Quotes of Wisdom

A long time ago, few years ago, I made a few notes on a windows program called Sticky Note--it came with the new laptop I got, last one died out (mother board).

I haven't opened up the program in a long time... as what I written was too painful to read, however couldn't delete them.

I just now opened it up... and here's what they say. (Those with no quotes are made by me.)

Journal Entry #14

Just realized I haven't made a post in almost a month. Nothing to really write about these days... well except for one thing.

For a few days, I had an issue with my left ear. Ear wax build up basically that I couldn't hear well out of that ear. Someone had to take my place to run the sound board last Sunday morning since monitoring volumes and cues will be difficult with only one ear working properly. I did want one person to run it, but apparently he didn't feel comfortable running it alone yet, but luckily someone else did. Glad Dad understood my concern about me running it that Sunday. Felt I needed a good break anyway.