"The Five People You Meet In Heaven"

Just saw a heart warming movie, "The Five People You Meet in Heaven". Based on the novel from Mitch Albom, author of "Tuesday with Morrie".

It was on the TV my folks were watching when I walked in the room... it really grabbed me, missed a few minutes of it, but minor details is all. It's one of those "heart warming", "gets to you", "possible afterlife path" thought movie. Dad chocked in tears, after the second person of five, on who the protagonist meets in his afterlife to heaven, that between the third and forth... tears were threatening to come from my eyes. It's hard for me to let out emotions, so it was easy to hold them off. Didn't want to show weakness... but that's just a cop out.

Anyway... after the movie, it had me thinking about me... about my past... my present... and my possible future. Even though I don't have many friends in real life, who I meet in person, I'm glad I have friends online, who care and can tolerate me. I really appreciate them for that. I really want to repay them for their tolerance and patience... but I don't know how. I can only return less than what they give me.

...Two things in the movie touched me hard... "Forgiveness" and "Love".

"...Hatred is a curve blade...the harm we do, we do to ourselves." Quoted from the novel which I believe was said in the movie. That quote... had me thinking about CSD4... now that I think about it... because of my hatred towards it... it hurt me in many ways. Because of that hatred... I lost love, let the fear of the student body to get in the way of my crush... and old friendships--even though I started new ones online.

"Lost love is still love... It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn't." Directly quoted from the novel. That had me thinking about my crush... however... we never had a love connection... so I don't have any memories of the sort. There was another girl I fell in love with... while in my state of desperate love. I do have memories of us... although it was only online in the online games "ToonTown" and "Trickster". I do have times of regret in those memories... but it was nice to have a taste of love... although that was about 5 years ago or so. I was so desperate for love... that I had to push away my crush to the side for that. Sigh... she only loved me for 6 months but made it last for 2 years. Needless to say I was devastated. That was years ago though... I'm glad we're still friends, despite all the drama I caused on her.

Even though majority of my friends are online... it's better than none I suppose. I try hard to not be a burden to them... like I have done to others before them.


...Dad wants me to read the novel, said it's better than the movie... guess I'll give it a read. Dad says it's an easy read, since he knows I'm not a big novel reader (I get bore easily when it comes to novels, couldn't even read much of "Harry Potter and The Sorcerers Stone" before losing interesting, like after 2 chapters or so, too difficult I guess for me to read.) He says it's short, even though the movie was 3 hours long, mainly because of the frequent commercials. Besides... been wanting to do something... so I guess I'll read this novel.