At Times, it Hurts to Accept

From Chapter 68: "December", Page 39
By Veronica “Taeshi” Vera

I know I made a similar entry like this back in October (Related to a Character)... but this slightly different. In this final page of the chapter, that ended in December 30th (had to take some time to get my thoughts together), this page reminded me of how I had to accept the truth that "she" wouldn't love me back, that times changed us both, despite how long I had a crush on "her" and how long I waited to see "her" again, with a side of desperation for love.

In this page, Lucy is finally accepting the fact that Mike, whom she had a crush on for years, doesn't have the same feelings for her, and doesn't want to be friends anymore, after a one sided argument with Mike, where Mike finally spoke his feelings about Lucy. (Read the chapter for more details).

While I never had such an argument with my crush... I can still relate to Lucy's reaction and her accepting the truth from what Augustus said to her in the Library.

I am glad my crush... well ex-crush I should have been saying, has found someone she's happy with. I know it's a distance... but I'm glad to know she's still happy with him.

...I'm still yearning to find that special someone... guess I'm still not ready for her... whoever she is. Guess whenever I'm ready... we'll meet. Then till... I still have a lot to learn... and a lot I should have learned years ago.

...Wish I wasn't so damn slow in life... feel so behind in my generation.