Sigh... in a bit of a quandry here... The instructor for Geology 101 is nice... but the way she teaches the class has now caused me to fall asleep, happened Tuesday night, and deeply lose interest during the lectures. As for the labs, after a 10-15 minute break from the lectures... well my lab partner dropped out (reasons unknown, was fun to be with too) so at times I work with another pair who are at around my age but more freash out of highschool with the characteristics of being a college bachalor, but even with their help I can't indentify rocks/minerals alone and that was part of that lab test a few weeks ago, to identify rocks/minerals alone for 3 minutes per, which I gotten a D in. Did better in the lab test than the lecture test, which was an F... couldn't bring myself to study without getting frustrated. I pretty much have no solid study habits.
Currently afraid to even look at my grade now since I've been slacking on my homework due to lack of motivation. I can't plainly do homework without getting overstressed and frustrated, even with some motivation... it just drives me bonkers. For many years I've always done my homework alone... because I didn't feel comfortable doing it with any other classmates... since there was never a deep connection with anyone. I'm just tired of doing it alone and asking my parents for help--they're not very reliable--and it'll just be awkward for me to do homework with a random person from my class that I hardly know or don't feel comfortable with.
I really wanna drop out... but since I don't have anything planned, like a job that I would feel comfortable doing (never had one and I'm 21, being nervous on a first job just wouldn't look good for me at this dang age)... I just don't know what to do in a very tight spot with no opening to get out.
Trying to find a middle road to all this... but just can't find one.
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